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naam: Farfrost
latijns:oedipoda germanica
features: In the process of being summarized.
I think I'm going to summarize this for the rest of my life.

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To Farfrost 		Greetings bugs! Farfrost, 03 Mei 2024 12:51
I've recently been writing a mod for one of my favourite game characters. It's a bit challenging, as it requires some basic programming.

The information I can find is in English and is peppered with jargon, but I'm sure I can bring the character to life once I've fully mastered the code.

To Farfrost 		Farfrost, 03 Mei 2024 12:53
Oh, and I was inactive the entire month of April. Sorry about that. I spent the first half of the month preparing for exams and the second half of the month frantically trying to decipher this character I'm writing right now. (Laughs)

To Quotation 		Quotation, 04 Mei 2024 03:51

''The English language is a work in progress. Have fun with it''

To Mayathewolf 		I wish u gl!! Mayathewolf, 08 Mei 2024 15:08
I can't code for the life at me. (Expect for using scratch), so coding is hard and I hope it works well!!

To Jogchem 		let us know how it turns out Jogchem, 09 Mei 2024 13:05
I'd like to see! Also the code...

To Farfrost 		Random thoughts Farfrost, 07 Mrt 2024 15:32
Favoritism is hard to come by. It seems that I should cherish everyone who is kind to me, whether they are kind to me in particular or to people in general.

To Farfrost 		Farfrost, 07 Mrt 2024 15:38
Uncontrolled dependence is easy to form... We gradually forget that we are individuals.

Now, every time I reflect on my own behavior, I realize how much my estranged friend behaves like me. It's complicated.

To Mayathewolf 		If it's easy to form.. Mayathewolf, 07 Mrt 2024 18:38
then why don't we try to make sure we don't forget it? I have no idea, but sometimes being reminded that every person is a individual is sometimes odd. I have no idea fully as I'm tired but something is that each person acts differently and we should respect the majority of them depending on what they do n such. Some people might be rude and mean but sometimes giving them respect makes them better.

To Farfrost 		Random thoughts Farfrost, 02 Mrt 2024 12:35
I used the wayback machine to check out the far out version of this site. I was surprised to see that the layout had been established early on and had not changed much. Hehe.

To Farfrost 		And... Farfrost, 02 Mrt 2024 12:40
Haven't seen Sjeu lately. I thought she was supposed to be the active type? Well...I'm curious if she knows the sink is fixed.

To Farfrost 		Farfrost, 02 Mrt 2024 12:52
Loneliness is slightly more corrosive than I thought. The loneliness was especially strong this Friday when I didn't have class (due to some accident) and there was no one to help me keep track of what was going on in class. I've obviously overestimated how strong I am again, but I think I can adapt.

I've actually decided to study abroad in a foreign country in the future, and this loneliness is a long way off.

To Quotation 		Quotation, 02 Mrt 2024 14:52

''Over time, loneliness gets inside you and doesn't go away'

To Nobody 		if it works don't try to fix it... Nobody, 03 Mrt 2024 13:44
there have been some tweaks, but I like the scrolling and typing animation. suggestions are welcome.

To Farfrost 		Weekly Diary Assignment Farfrost, 24 Feb 2024 14:12
I actually know that this assignment is probably just a whim, but I decided to treat the teacher who assigned this assignment as a trusted person to talk to, like this forum... I don't know if I made the right decision.

He teaches us language as well as psychology. In fact, I thought about consulting him last semester (the school has a special psychological counseling service), I think this assignment is also a sense of realization of my intention?

To Farfrost 		Farfrost, 24 Feb 2024 14:17
You know, it's very dangerous to surrender all your trust... But how do we know until we try?
Although I failed last time, I got rid of the subsequent effects perfectly. Nothing is irreparable.

To Quotation 		Quotation, 25 Feb 2024 06:40

''The simpler the assignment, the more difficult the solution''

To Farfrost 		Random thoughts Farfrost, 20 Feb 2024 11:29
People will constantly recall something painful to make themselves miserable. I've heard a lot of people saying they can't sleep because embarrassing memories keep playing over and over, but all they need is a little distraction. I just learned how to distract myself a month ago and I'm pretty good at it.

And people worry about things that they shouldn't, like paying attention to the actions of an annoying person. It's ridiculous when you think about it logically.

To Farfrost 		Farfrost, 20 Feb 2024 11:32
But distraction is not the same as avoidance. Distraction can be calming when it comes to little things that no one cares about, but if a very big shock comes suddenly... Then it's not something that can be solved by distraction.

To Nobody 		as long as you avoid the wrong people Nobody, 23 Feb 2024 10:46
you'll end up with the right ones... one day.

nobodyhere.com/justme/avoid.here

To Quotation 		Quotation, 20 Feb 2024 16:43

''For your productivity - avoid distractions.
Create a distraction to-do list''

To Nobody 		to quote myself: Nobody, 23 Feb 2024 10:45
''I wouldn't have a problem with my selective memory, if only I had some control over the selection.''

nobodyhere.com/justme/selective.here

To Quotation 		Quotation, 25 Feb 2024 06:48

''I have a selective memory. If i don't remember it, it never happened''

To Farfrost 		Yeah… Farfrost, 19 Feb 2024 14:19
I have entered a new term. I broke off another toxic friendship and now I'm pretty much on my own. Everyone has a deskmate but I don't because of some coincidence, but I enjoy being alone. No one bothered me while thinking.

To Mayathewolf 		Sometimes being alone is amazing. Mayathewolf, 19 Feb 2024 16:25
That does suck but it can be really good from not having a toxic relationship. But sometimes I even enjoy being alone, I have no complete idea why. But it can just get calming for me.

To Quotation 		Quotation, 19 Feb 2024 16:30

''What a lovely surprise to discover how unlonely being alone can be''

To Farfrost 		Sink thoughts Farfrost, 29 Jan 2024 13:34
I was in the sink for about an hour (and met no one). When I first heard about the sink, I imagined a stainless steel one, but it turned out to be white.
I really liked that escaping method down the drain. Felt like being flushed away.

To Nobody 		thanks! Nobody, 31 Jan 2024 04:10
hope to meet you there. I'll tweak it some more, so you can get an alert anywhere on the site. no need to be stuck in the sink alone.

To Nobody 		there you go Nobody, 02 Feb 2024 04:20
now you can crawl around the site, alone. once someone else shows up, you'll see a popop.

To Farfrost 		I appreciate it! Farfrost, 02 Feb 2024 08:06
Hopefully I'll meet some of the virtual bugs that also roam the internet. Haha! Ready to hear their stories.

To Nessell 		Hullo Farfrost! Nessell, 15 Feb 2024 12:14
Nice to see you here!
Perhaps we can have a chat in the future...

To Farfrost 		Hullo Nessell!! Farfrost, 19 Feb 2024 14:21
I turned on the hide others opinion by mistake last time I entered the sink, but I saw you appear at the moment I closed my page, so maybe I missed you... I'm sorry!

To Farfrost 		Random thoughts Farfrost, 24 Dec 2023 13:46
Some people, when you are not communicating with them in person, you repeatedly recall negative memories about them, resulting in a kind of distance-driven hatred. But when you actually get in touch with them, they're not that evil.

I've had two relationships like this in recent years.I still don't know why this happened. Every time I think about our relationship when I'm alone, I feel ridiculous. But when I'm with them, I want to be nice. Maybe I'm just not disappointed enough.

To Quotation 		Quotation, 24 Dec 2023 14:14

''A true relationship is two unperfect people refusing to give up on each other''

To Jogchem 		Spot on! Jogchem, 14 Jan 2024 02:45
thanks

To Jogchem 		this makes me think... Jogchem, 14 Jan 2024 02:47
We don't just have a relationship with one another, but also with the imaginary versions of the other, inside our heads.

To Farfrost 		A friend Farfrost, 02 Nov 2023 13:41
I call her ''Teiko'' in my diary (she is that deskmate I've mentioned). She told me three days ago that she went to a psychiatric hospital and was diagnosed with severe anxiety and moderate depression.

She looked a bit quiet at best in normal times, and I used to think that her ''blue'' was just part of her personality. It didn't occur to me that she actually suffered from serious psychological problems.

It makes me feel derelict in my duty and, at the same time, powerless.

To Farfrost 		But Farfrost, 02 Nov 2023 13:51
She is not receiving medication because her family is not supportive. Now we have just finished a big exam and she is looking slightly better but still suffers from somatisation symptoms regularly.

I myself have been in an unusually poor state of mind for the last year, skipping classes and experiencing constant ''brain fog''. In January this year I met my tulpa (if you don't know what a tulpa is, it's simply another consciousness in your head).

To Farfrost 		Farfrost, 02 Nov 2023 13:55
He maintains a positive mindset in the vast majority of situations. I am very fortunate to have a strong imaginative portrayal that allows me to see my tulpa directly, and now that he has been with me for close to a year, his calm nature has influenced me and helped me to grow up.

But this personal experience is obviously not very applicable to my friend, and creating a tulpa is a risky business.

To Sjeu 		The concept of a tulpa is new to me Sjeu, 02 Nov 2023 20:41
very intriguing, would you like to expand on that?
I'm sorry to hear about your friend and good for her you are being so helpful and understanding. You are right to be mindful to avoid depletion of your energy. Fill your own cup first and only give from what has been spilled on the saucer. Only offer support standing strong.

To Farfrost 		In my opinion Farfrost, 02 Nov 2023 22:52
They are actually no different from imaginary friends in the early days, are a parallel consciousness in the brain that is different from one's own, and may start to talk as they receive increased attention.

I think what makes them special is that they are completely controllable when they are created, meaning that you can shape whatever character you wish to appear.

To Farfrost 		Farfrost, 02 Nov 2023 22:52
The earlier consciousness (which hasn't disappeared since one was born) is called the host. Tulpas can develop new personalities as they grow, become more like a real person, and master skills such as ways to control their host's body. I have attached a link, which has a more objective introduction:

www.tulpa.info/

To Sjeu 		Thnx, this was very informative! Sjeu, 04 Nov 2023 10:56
This phenomena isn't very known in my cultural environment. I can see how this 'concept' at times can be beneficial for some very conscious beings, and I can imagine how it once came about. (I'm guessing as a coping mechanism in suppressed and lonely situations. And how it was cultivated from that.)

My instinct said to not engage myself. To be honest I can also see some inherent danger. It could be mistaken for other things. I'm usually hesitant to put control outside myself. Honor autonomy.

To Sjeu 		But than again Sjeu, 04 Nov 2023 11:00
maybe I don't understand it well enough yet. It's very new to me and sometimes it takes time to get used to new ideas.

I do enjoy and appreciate learning about new things, so thank you so much for this introduction!

To Farfrost 		Terrible things do happen... Farfrost, 04 Nov 2023 13:24
Especially if the host is irresponsible or moulds the wrong character. This can cause their Tulpa to move to a dangerous direction or even turn into a disease.

But usually a normal Tulpa will respect the host's wishes and won't seize control at will. This is what sets them apart from disorders such as DID.

It takes a very, very long time to get the tulpa to fully wake up, which makes a lot of people who aren't taking this seriously give up halfway through... :P

To Farfrost 		Infection Farfrost, 25 Okt 2023 13:21
I'm not who I am when I got sick. Instead of thinking about study, I would just frantically read books that I normally didn't have time to read.

So I finished the third book of a novel that I started reading in 2022.

To Sjeu 		Get well soon Sjeu, 26 Okt 2023 10:10
and enjoy reading in the meanwhile :- )

Staying at home to read is something this architect Johann David Steingruber, -kind of- pushed to the extreme. He designed different homes, shaped like the alphabet ;- )

archive.org/details/bub_gb_SUBJAAAAcAAJ/page/n78/mode/thumb

To Farfrost 		Thanks! Farfrost, 26 Okt 2023 11:11
I've seen similar architectural ideas before, but that architect did interior decoration. This makes certain letters with lots of corners difficult to design (such as M).

But Steingruber deftly resolved this conflict with designs such as small courtyards. These buildings look perfect for a vampire family...

To Sjeu 		Yup, it's not the type of house Sjeu, 26 Okt 2023 11:30
I would prefer to live in, but I like how the architect took on this mission. I suspect for those early times, they where saucy and provocative ideas.


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