to know what i really want to do with myself

this love to fade so that i do not feel the pain caused by your absence.

the overseas study committee to tell me that I can go to Madrid

This guy to realize who I actually am and that I have fallen head over heels for him and I'm waiting for him to like me back and stop being an idiot. I'm waiting for the moment where I'm no longer lonely.

you you you

my cat to stop judging me.

stuff to happen

sun in iceland

hope

I'm waiting for George to get here.

everything and nothing

listening to people say how we were only together a short while,it was just sex,blah blah.I have had sex.before you many times.I never lost my whole life and went from happy to distraught and inconsolable for months over some random sex.Noone knows what it was. Maybe I don't know.It was intense and very real for me and now I am lost.I am waiting for this to stop.I am waiting to have a reason to be happy.I am waiting still in the depths of my heart for you to come after me.I am a fool.

trying not to worry about not getting in

Sitting on my butt, pining over him.

missing you

ignoring the people around me.

still looking...

freezing my ass off

dying

Playing online.

then i won't want anything and will be happy with nothing..

sorrow

i will cry for two months straight

I will be heartbroken, for the third time, most likely.

nothing new

i'll go away and read. shrug.

go back in time and try tomorrow again

i'l kiss u goodbye

nothing will carry on

Don't say that.