myself to feel something for someone

My eyeballs to fall off due to too much time on this site.

spring

death

a phone call

a proposal

this job to end....

her

holiday

him to come home

trying to love ashley, trying to be interested in adam.

Washing myself in perfume.

drinking hot chocolate

slitting my wrists, taking damaging pills...

watching tv, waiting by the phone

dating still... I love my boyfriend very much

researching more jobs to take up time

dreaming

nothing

trying to keep busy

i'll return to those times

I will do a squirrel dance and shout "hallelujah!" at the sun.

Spring always comes.

I'll shoot my stomach 3 times then hang myself

i'll kill myself

then I guess I'll still date him... its better than nothing

it has to happen. this has to stop.

keep looking

whatever

he will always come home to me