to shit

the get served

for the creative gates of what the hell is not going on in my life to be left behind in the horizon that I will never need to locate myself again.

to get dressesd im real lazy

I am waiting for my important exam

my superior to come back so we can have a meeting

to finish my thesis

someone to call me back and give me a job.

It to all come together

To see my boyfriend tomorrow...

thinking about shitting and mel gibson

thinking about south park

Tangling myself into thinking that I will find inspiration and splash !%! all my ideas with come into an orgiastic fruition; smoking so many cigarettes and loving it, what would I do with all that time anyway, the length of time taken to smoke different cigarettes differs; all the things I can't do now I am doing in the meantime. Mean time. Me time. Me in time. Damn!

bein half naked

Review and do more excise everyday!!!

typing into this box

writing, writing, sleeping, writing

waiting. pretending like i'm looking for other things.

Living in chaos

Wanting to call him while he is not home...

I might have to see the "Passion of Christ"

I'll eat all the balls

then I'm not sure what I will do. I am not sure I can lift this darkness. I wish it was like a 2 pound weight I wish I had so that I could use in the dvd pilates that I wish I could motivate myself to do. If something doesn't happen then something's gotta give. Me, my stuff, my hair might need to be cut like a cheap thrill. I am trying to figure out if I can make it happen, if I can make anything worth anything happen. Make myself happen. Happen myself.

some people may have a BIG shock

I would want to end my story!

i continue typing

it will happen.

i'll be broke. and bored.

Then I will never be truly happy

I will wait until the net day I guess...