myself to make the changes i want to

The end of the world

Her to realize my words get in the way and to look beyond the blank expression. to see beneath.

time to pass

sleep

her to love me. aren't we all doing this? sad...

love

Him to prove he loves me.

lunch. i am very hungry

Some spring action.

sitting on my ass, as usual

Staring intensely at my wall, hoping to find the answers there

biding my time.

sitting here and watching the clock

wasting away in front of this computer

what i do in the meantime is really not as important as what happens later.

waiting

Fading away

eating stephanie's chips

Sniffing at the wind and checking if perhaps it's already here.

decades of the same

There will be much rejoicing

cast myself into a downward spiral, then recognize that this is only a stupid crush.

...

lose my sanity

shit if i know. fuck.

my life will be over

I'll swallow my rainbow

then i'll get pissed.

I'll stay wraped in scarfs for the rest of my life. And lonely.