the opprtunity to make him see

to be free

the patience to know that life doesn't have meaning... it just is

the answer to my questions.

for tomorrow to be today.

an idea to continue a chapter

for him to realize we're ment to be

love

Dinner

Someone loving me

watching myself get older

im falling in love once in a while

smiling at all the idiosyncracies and curiosities i come upon

looking for them & praying.

eating cereal and staring out the window.

wrestling with ideas, tossing them,throwing them, pinning them down

spending as mutch time as possible with him

nothing

Wracking the mental fridge in my head

praying

i will die alone

i'll continue being me

i'll die smiling

Try to have faith for what's meant to be.

close my eyes and try again.

it will come...it always does

I refuse to think like that

nothing

Get a kebab later

Then I'll be very very sad