someone to phone me

the phone to ring

freedom to travel

$1,000,000

a page to load

Pure Happiness for Me and Mine

the phone to ring

happiness

true love

love and happiness

looking on stupid websites

look at this page

working in L.A.

working

look at this page

Cruising and trying

biting my nails

killing time

obsessing

crying -- so damn hard

i will kill myself

does it matter

I'll die on the west coast

arthritis

continue looking at this page

I'll be ded ... (won't know if it doesn't happen til i am :-))

i might finish reading this book...

does it matter

depression

then fuck it