I'm waiting for the rain to wash wgo I am

I'm waiting for it to happen

bus

The bus

i am still in vegas-happy again after a while of misery still waiting to forget...

brendan

something interesting to happen

tomorrow

for all those pills to start taking effect.....

for this boy to call me.... although his voice does not sound the way i expected... but still i love to talk to him.... but I'm not sure if it's right.... he says he's about to fall in love with me..... do i want that? i don't know.....i'll just wait and see....

Playing the game, the one that will take me to my end

some people call it self-mutilation

re inverted commers

fishing

I think of him every moment of every day- now it doesn't hurt as much

masturbating

maturbating

waiting

take some more........

I'm cleaning my room, drinking green tea, eating things i don't like, spending the days in my piyama, going for a walk lostening to my new kings-of-convenience-cd and thinking of him......

screw it

I'll live. Always do.

walk

i wont hav a fish

i can't say...

suicide

I'll keep on masturbating

today

dunno....sliting my wrists....that might work.....

i could try to call him....