my sanity

For them to say they care for me.

for him to come back

The right time to become a performer.

48 hours to pass so I can take a second rapid test to confirm if i have the 'rona or not

meet my internet friend from german!

my mom to return home

his death

To lay my black heart on the table

myself to finally decide if I’m good or bad, so I can stick to it.

my dreams

Questioning myself.

constantly switching back and forth from loving to hating him

This.

using this site i guess. and procrastinating on work i have to do

wait and keep in touch with my friend

living my usual life/hangout alone/jus draw or smth

tolerate him

Making it feel at home

doubting everything everywhere all at once.

my life

Probably have another breakdown.

ill kill myself, or just never love again

Then I'll at least still be an artist.

that seems unlikely, time flows without regards to anything else. if the second test i got somehow is destroyed i suppose it'll need to be replaced

ILL DO ANYTHING FOR IT TO HAPPEN

sadness.

i will kill him

I’ll bleed out

I’ll curl in my little legs, and die. what else could a bug do?